anxitey-blog

 i dont get the obsession most girls have abt boys, i dont know why they would be intrested in love. im in my teenage years and i dont understand why girls squeal or giggled or act diffrently around a boy, i mean how do they even know if they love or like the boy, not that i have anything against it , i just dont get it . my social anxitey is so bad that i cant start a conversation and id rather be alone than start one, so ive never had a date or a boyfriend  neither a girlfriend, im just more obsessed with other stuff, as  anime seasons and  the characters , or drawing the characters or fan girling abt how a character looks , not cause i like them and wanna marry the character but jsut simply cause its such a good design and personality of the character, its the same with counter-strike 2 and other video games, i dont have any intrests in getting a lover but sometimes i think it´d be nice to have a  lover such as a first kiss and a first  girlfriend or boy...

 hello anxitey blog ,  i have had extreme anxitey since i was 8 and has stopped me from socialising and going to school i can barely talk to anyone i dont know, it has made my life more difficult and without being able to talk to anyone abt my day , so ive decied to blog even tho im not entirely sure how blogging works😓. i dont have alot of friends i talk to anymore since the others kinda left me out and blamed it on my anxitey, and i miss the part of me where i would have confidence to pull off a skirt or a croptop or a dress, now all i wear in hoodies and baggy pants . im also very diffrent from girls nowdays, i dont have the face to pull of make up so i dont wear any, i dont like talking abt boys or how apearances look, i like talking abt anime and gaming , sometimes zombies and old games from the 2000s, i spend more time in my room than talking to anyone cause i dont rlly have anyone to talk to that isnt my parents or brother, and sometimes i find it sad my life has come ...